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Wednesday, 07 January 2009

  • The Gym

    So I have read a lot of girls' opinions how they hate being hit on the gym.

    I can understand their reason of when they go it's me time and they don't want to be bothered. When I'm jogging and even when I'm walking from class to class, I'm like this as well. It's just me, the road, my music, and my thoughts.

    Just what I don't necessarily agree with is the whole "I look horrible thing!" No make up on, your hair is in a pony tail, you're in sweats, and your sweating. Big deal. The fact that you're in a gym and care enough about your health can be attractive.

    So what if you didn't apply five pounds of eyeliner? So what if your sweat is drenching your shirt? Don't we find it attractive when a man is all sweaty and dirty from the field working hard? Seeing all his muscles contracting. What's the difference?

    We as women, care too much what we look. I do have to say, that there are picky men out there, but a lot of them don't care. They find a women more beautiful when they're relaxed, in a pair of old shorts and a t-shirt, with our hair slightly undone.

    Besides, sex is a messy act itself. Your hair gets undone and your sweating and breathing hard. Are you going to stop having sex because you just don't look good? No. There's also a factor that it feels good, but doesn't it also feel good spending thirty minutes tightening your buns for the summer? Of course. And I know they're different feelings, but it's all about satisfying you. Wether it's your sex hormones or wanting to be the envy of every girl on the beach.

    So relax. Be happy that a guy finds you beautiful sweating like a big, with no foundation on, and your hair in a messy bun as you jog on that treadmill.

Friday, 02 January 2009

  • Still Virgins.

    As you may or may not know, I'm not exactly the person who has a lot of experience in the romance department. On the other hand, do I listen to all my friend's crazy stories and learn a lot from them.

    One day, two of my friends (S and L) and I were sitting around for coffee and the topic of virginity was brought up. The three of us were all virgins. S and I agreed that it would be nice to have it be with someone who's also just inexperienced. Our reason was that we wouldn't be as embarrassed because the guy wouldn't know what do as well. Another reason is that, we felt that if he was still a virgin he could be more caring and not only think about himself. Not saying that all experienced guys are be jerks. L disagreed, she wants an experience man because he'll know what to do when the time comes. L is also complaining that she's still a virgin. She feels the next big step for her is to loose it.

    My best friend (J) was like L. She wanted to get it over with and with an experienced man. She chose the wrong one. He wasn't gentle with her at all. All he cared about was pleasuring himself and went too hard and too fast for her first time. The next day, she could barely walk and she bled for two days. Another friend (M) found out that J lost her virginity and she wanted to loose it right away. J told her that she wasn't ready for it. She told M that she knew her, and that she needed it to be with a man she loved or else she would regret it. M got really mad at her. In truth, M wanted it because she was jealous that J did something before she did. She wanted the spotlight for herself. I never knew if M ended up loosing it, we lost contact long ago.

    I'm still not looking to loose that yet. I know myself, and I know that it needs to be with someone special. Be it a man who's experienced or in experienced. There is a wild side in me that wants to run free and do crazy things, but I shut her up because I couldn't live with the disappointment in myself later on.

    What about you? Was your first time something as miserable as J's? Or something more than that?

Wednesday, 31 December 2008

  • Running.

    Wjhfefwwef! I just feel so frustrated right now. Reading other's blogs on how guys have done them wrong isn't helping. I wish I could just wipe out some paint and canvas and do something with it, but I can't. I have no drive for abstraction. It is an art program that failed to be installed into my brain.

    For now, I will run. Get my mind off of things.

    What do you to get your mind off of things?

Monday, 29 December 2008

  • Through the feedback of Facebook I noticed that one of my friends got into a relationship recently. Now, we've been friends for a short amount of time, and I knew that he was in a long relationship beforehand. The girl cheated on him multiple times and really hurt him. I didn't know her name or what she looked like so I became a little worried.

    He seemed too infatuated with her to have it just be something that started so soon. He wrote in his about me how amazing she was and was adding pictures of them together. What if the girl that broke his heart into million of pieces managed to sweet talk her way back into his life?

    This morning, he IMed and after catching up, I asked him if this new girl was the ex that really hurt him. I was relieved to find out that she wasn't. It was a new girl that he met not too long ago.

    How fast they were moving in a relationship was starting to concern him. Not because he felt that she was getting too attached, but because into three weeks of them dating, he felt that he was already in love with her. He asked me if it's wrong to feel some sort of love towards her?

    After thinking about it for a few, I responded, "It seems silly and too fast, but no. Love shows no signs and no brakes. It just happens. It's something we can't control."

    I remember back in middle school, I had it plan when I would fall in love. Sometime by college I would find "the one." After a year of dating, that's when I would fall in love and say it. Anything before that was far too soon. Of course, now I know that love is unexpected and doesn't obey laws or time.

    I told him though, to take his time. Don't rush it too fast. In case she's still not at that level, he doesn't want to scare her off.

    Do you think it's too soon? Around what time is it ideal to say those three words?

Saturday, 27 December 2008

  • Old Times

    I met up with an old friend for dinner yesterday. She said she had loads to me. I knew immediately it was about a boy.

    Now, I love my friend and I've sat through all her crazy stories. All these guys that don't treat her right and they end up just being sex partners. By the first three guys, I got tired of telling her that she needed to stop meeting all these random guys at parties. Always hooking up with the same boys with the same stories. Each time I would hear about a new one (I lost count) my heart would break a little. I was tired of her doing this to herself. She deserved better.

    This time, it was different. She had actually settle down with someone, someone worth while. Luckily, I knew the guy from grade school, he was a good boy and he has been good to her. He has shown her the romantic side and that it is possible to care deeply for someone else.

    After all these guys that called her up to sleep with her and after all the drama they've brought, she finally found herself her a good boy. Someone who brings her flowers and shows her that there is much more than just sleeping around. She found someone to be herself with. All the other guys she felt she had to dress up for, but with him, she could be in sweats with her hair undone and still feel loved. She found someone to snuggle up on the couch and watch The Notebook with. She found someone who genuinely cares for her and loves her for her.

    "Babe, look out the window."
    "Okay."
    "You see the snow? How many snow flakes do you think there is?"
    "A lot."
    "Well, that's how much I miss you."

    Although they've been in a relationship for less then a month, I'm happy for her.